yikes

i feel like a fucking retard srsly

yesterday morning pietre mauled a cat infront of me

my own negligence and poor training caused a cat to die.

i took her to the vet but they i opted for uthenasia (idk how to spell)

the voice of God (or ‘Natural Law’ as per C.S. Lewis’ “Mere Christianity” would put it) told me to try and save the cat. take her in and heal her in my home. but i declined

i would always pray that i become a better father for this dog. and i’ve received my answer.

i feel filthy and disgusting. but i wont ruminate in this feeling. all there’s left to do is to take the training seriously so that he doesnt one day attack a small child 😭