jork

i basically spent the entire day just fighting with computer code trying to get this blog page up without using ai (still ended up using some ai)

y’know atleast i didn’t like one shot it. i tried…

i am a fraud.

today i relapsed on **** and it was whatever i guess.

something about relapsing is that im always so dumbfounded at how much of a nothing burger **** is.

it’s not really actually a nothing burger but what I mean is that i wasnt missing out on anything. yet the effects and consequences are still pretty bad

every since i got baptized i’ve been able to go about ~3 weeks without struggling at all (due to the grace that i take for granted so liberally) and then boom.

im struggling.

im weak.

i fail.